What I Am Reading

Wild Witch, A Guide to Earth Magic by Marian Green

“A practical guide for bringing magic into your life using plants and herbs, the seasons, and the natural elements.” An excerpt from the Amazon description of this book.

I originally began reading this book a year or more ago, then put it down because it was so disheartening – and the author is rather harsh and stringent in her preface.

When I picked it up again this past week, I made a commitment to myself to get at least a quarter of the way into this book before even thinking about putting it down again. I am SO glad I made that commitment, and really glad I am in a much better frame of mind than I was before.

Admittedly, I almost set it down once again. The preface really is quite rude and I can see where several people would be turned away from the book if they didn’t read beyond the beginning. This is NOT the book for someone who is just dabbling in paganism, earth spirituality/religions, or is unable to handle a rough, grab-you-by-the-ruff-of-the-neck-to-get-your-attention type of author. She almost demands that you sit up straight and change your harmful ways! So, strap on your big girl/boy pants and check your whines at the cover, then make the commitment to LEARN, and that is just what you will do!

I am sooo glad I struggled past the soapbox the author was on and didn’t let her language or “voice” deter me from reading on into the actual book. The premise of the book is that we have forgotten how to live with the land, that our Earth has taken care of humanity for many eons of our existance because WE KNEW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF HER! In just the last few generations, we have lost that knowledge and the Earth is suffering the consequences of our lost knowledge.

My favorite reading place, by the firepit under Grandfateher Elm

Now, when you start this book, you will want to have a journal on hand as well as a good pen. I also read the book with a highlighter and matching pen in hand because I do highlight and write comments/observations in the sidelines. I know, some people will be looking at me with absolute horror, but there are some books I do write in!

This is one of those books you will want to refer back to quite often, there is so much information in these pages. This first reading, I am picking up the history and odd bits of trivia as well as looking deeply at myself and my own habits. Yes, I am seriously looking at how my habits are contributing to the distruction of our Mother Earth, and how I can change. Time to open our eyes and listen.

For now, I plan on making friends of the trees in my yard, my neighborhood and even in the park I walk in at noon! I am going to spend time learning the basic herbs that are indigenous to my area, growing them in my gardens. I will learn what their many uses are; magickally, medically, and baking/cooking. I will learn how to dry & preserve the herbs I grow so we can use them throughout the years to come.

I don’t want to say too much about the actual content because I really don’t know what information someone else would glean from this book at any given time in their life. I know that there will be several more times I will pick up and re-read that one because I will get something different out of it each time.

Until next week,

Stay Magickal, Friends!

September 2021

On my Instagram feed today:

“you have to get to a point where your mood doesn’t shift based on the insignificant actions fo someone else.”

This touched me to my soul. I have been struggling with this for most of my life, but am working on it in earnest this year. I want to be a much calmer, consistent self than I have been. That means learning to control my empathy, my intuition and my emotions. None of thosse are easy to control by any means, but I know I am strong enough to do exactly what I set out to do. I have already determined that I will bouw out of the drama hubby D and daughter T spout with me in the middle. Lately, hubby D has been jealous of daughter T calling me at work … Too bad, she IS my daughter and I will NOT cut her off at any time … I won’t trust her as much as I once did, but I am also not sinking to their level and cutting anyone completely out of my life. I WILL limit my time with them, either physically or mentally. With daughter T, I don’t go to see her, she has to come to me if she want’s to see me. I learned that lesson a couple of years ago. With hubby D, since I live with him, I check out by going into a book or getting busy baking or any of a dozen or more activities I can get completely involved in.

I have been taking some Tarot “lessons” from Biddy Tarot. So far, I am struggling with reading the instruction book, but plan on spending some time this long weekend with those lessons, getting through the first week of lessons. Then I will set aside some time each evening to do one daily lesson. I may do some of the daily lessons more than once to make sure I fully understand them, but I will get through all the lessons, eventually.

This Monday (Labor Day in these United States) is the New Moon for September, it is in the astrological sign of Virgo. New moons are a time to set intentions for the next Full Moon. With this one in Virgo, those intentions may manifest better than ever. Virgo energy is organized, being a sign known for perfection. This may be the push needed to actually follow through on those dreams that haven’t quite made it to become goals yet. Make your list, pick one or two to concentrate on, then go for the gusto on those goals! I know that is what I will be doing this New Moon!

Until next week –

Stay Magickal, Friends.

Our Stories Are Worth Telling

We finally had some warm, dry days to get our vegetable garden planted. Now we just need to keep the gentle, soaking rains going so everything germinates and more warm, sunny days for growing! I am looking forward to the healthy produce from this garden.

On the other side of that garden, I had planned on putting in a shade/moonlight garden with a small patio/sitting area. Then our So9uth neighbor put in a rock drive for his RV and our West neighbor took out the trees that shaded that spot! Now, I have to re-think my backyard plans! I am leaning toward that corner area becoming my greenhouse/potting shed/compost area. I have been wanting something like that for awhile now, just didn’t have a sunny location that would support a greenhouse. Now I do!

I still want to put in a shade/moonlight garden, but must see where the sun and shade hit after all the tree-trimming the West neighbor and the North neighbor have done. Hoping they have opened my yard to more possiblities! Project for middle of next month: take pictures throughout a sunny day to see where shade and sun are during the day because everything has changed since last year when I did it the first time!

I have finally begun my herbal dictionary… figure if all my herbs grow in my garden, I should know how and where to use them! The first two I am studying are Rosemary and Chamomile. Goodness! I barely looked at anything on Pinterest about these two and already have 1/3 of a page filled on each of them! This is going to be fun!

I am also making a morning ritual af sitting at my kitchen altar to mediate, then draw a Tarot card for the day. Today’s card is The Lovers: Balance, Unity, Partnerships, Choices, Harmony.

Theme for today: Self-love … Understanding my values and beliefs, finding my palce, deciding what is and what isn’t important enough to keep. Staying true and authentic to my soul. Choosing the best version of myself to bring into the world; because, as the last line I read today in the story I am currently reading says, “Our stories are worth telling,”

Until next time!

Plant ; Bloom!

I Flow In Harmony and Peace

Winter is over, Spring has arrived.

Easter is past and now we have April showers.

Everything is bursting with renewed life and energy.

My gardens are showing signs of growth and renewal.

The birds are singing in the trees and the sun is warming my side of the world.

I watch the ducks and geese nesting at the park, enjoying the first blossoms of a beautifully promising Springtime.

I have ground myself to my home gardens, walking barefoot in the freshly tilled earth, feeling the energy and warmth and love of Mother Earth. Now, I am ready to put the seeds and new plants into that same fresh, fertile and magickal ground.

This year we will have our fresh vegetables and herbs from our garden. We will grow and blossom along with our gardens as we watch the miracle of plant, grow, harvest, enjoy! This will be an organic garden, using coffee grounds, potato peelings, egg shells, & fruit peelings as fertilizer/repellant as needed.

We also have free-range chickens next door who will help keep the bugs to a minimum.

Inside our home, I have cleared my kitchen and am keeping things put away so I have the needed space to make delicious, healthy, home-cooked meals and bake the wonderful cakes, cookies, pies and breads I had growing up… I think baking has been the hardest to give up while we were so busy with Dave’s cancer and the COVID shut-downs everywhere.

This year, Dave is trying new foods and finding out he CAN eat them and enjoy them… he has finally stopped saying, ‘yum’ to his fave foods, thenk asking me if they taste good! I am pretty sure he can taste things somewhat… It may not be the same as it used to be, but there IS some taste still there!

We planted a small Red-Twig Dogwood tree in our back yard. This tree is an experiment. It was originally part of a Christmas Bouquet at my work. The twigs took root and blossomed at my window, so I brought them home and we planted them. Hoping they stay alive and really take off! The red twigs will look amazing against our winter snows.

We had cleared the front garden last autumn, so this year we planted a row of rose bushes, Arizona floribunda roses on either side of the front garden and an Oklahoma tea rose bush and a Midas Touch tea rose bush between the stepping stones and the floribunda roses. If they all take off like everything has before, that garden will give us peonies in the early spring, roses all through the spring & summer months into the autumn, then we will have a row of chrysanthamums across the front for autumn color.

I will take a picture at a later date, perhaps in a year or so, when the roses have matured a bit.

In the meantime, get out and enjoy Mother Nature in whatever season you are in. She has a beauty all her own at every turn of the wheel.

Until next time, Blessed Be and remember – Plant ; Bloom! Translation: Plant where you are, pause if needed, then bloom to your fullest potential!

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Spring Renewal

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I had a really rough morning at work yesterday, so really needed a quiet walk in nature to ground and center myself so I could come back to my desk in a better mood and a kinder, gentler frame of mind.

It was a perfect day to walk in the park close to my work. The red buds are still blooming beautifully against the summer-blue Kansas sky. The birds are singing their lively spring songs and the trees are all beginning to show their new buds. The ducks are sitting on their eggs. And all is fresh and new in nature.

 

I had gentle meditation music playing in the one ear bud I wear for my walks (so I can also listen to the birds sing, the wind rustle thru the trees, and the water flow over the rocks). As I walked along, I was reminded of the precious renewals we all go thru every year, sometimes several times a year. I thank Gaia for the opportunity to experience this Spring renewal and the return of the sun to this area of the world. I thank her for the memories of several past Springs that have brought so much happiness to me and such a sense of wonder in each new flower or tree blossoming , each sweet song for the birds and each gentle hum from the insects.

I invite you to look around where you live as the new season unfolds before you. Look for the joy and wonder of the rebirth of each plant or creature this spring (or the slowing down and restfulness of each creature and the preparation for the quiet season if you are beginning autumn where you live). Fully be in the season each moment you can. watch the changes mindfully and note how you feel; renewed energy or beginning to slow down and rest. Appreciate the beauty in each scent, sound and sight as you walk in nature.

Thank you, Gaia, for the wonder of each season and the changes in our world. I appreciate the joy and renewal in Spring (as that is the season I am in now). Thank you for this lesson in gratitude and stillness.

 

In the Eye of the Storm

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Seriously getting in the Yule Spirit

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I spent some time outside at my home. By myself. In the wind. With some peppermint tea. I feel so much better now!

On my drive to work, I was thinking about what to get my son and his family for Christmas/Yule, and came up with the perfect gifts! As a plus, I have already collected most of the ingredients I will need! Isn’t it great when Gaia leads you to things that you didn’t know you would need, but you collected them anyway!

I will be making some spell jars for my Pagan family members…

One will get a nightmare protection jar, one will get a health and happiness spell jar and the third will get a peace and prosperity spell jar.  Two will be tiny ones that they can wear and one will be set beside there bed at all times. I am so tickled to get started on these! I don’t even care if Hubby (who doesn’t know I am on The Path) asks what I am doing! I am so ready to come out of the broom closet so I can actually practice and celebrate as I feel I need to instead of trying to arrange time alone to do what I need to do for my own peace of mind.

But, back to the protection/spell jars..I have almost all the things I need for them so I can get started right away. I am hoping to have them all ready to sit on the windowsill on the next full moon so they will be especially powerful for their people. I am starting with the nightmare protection jar because I am closest to the person that one will go to. It tickles me that as I write down what I want to put into the jar, then look up the correspondences, I am so right on with that! My intuition is coming back to me so quickly and so fully! Thank you, Gaia!

I will post all about them as I finish them and will post pictures when they are completed and charged.  Wish me luck!

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Storm on the Horizon

I Heard and Heeded the Call

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This morning was one of those difficult ones, the kind that you wish you could just go back to bed and call it a day already! Hubby was not happy about my shopping trip yesterday (even though I got him some warm and comfortable fleece clothes to wear for his cancer treatments), and he woke up in a fowl mood, accusing me of having a lover again! After he left for work, I sat at my altar and just let all of those feelings wash over me and dissipate in the air. After a short while, I felt so much better and looked in the dish that holds some of my crystals. Two of them called me so I picked them up, I tried to put them back into the dish, but they wouldn’t drop from my hand, so I stuffed them into my bra for the drive to work.

The crystals were Carnelian and Tigers Eye. I feel so much more in control of my emotions and nowhere near as angry and frustrated as I had been feeling. Thank you, Gaia, for teaching this lesson to me today.

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On another subject, we will be going to Hubby’s cancer team meeting early Monday morning. This meeting should give us the information about what stage his cancer is in, how far it has spread, and give us a clearer image of what treatments to expect. I am nervous as well as ready to find out. Waiting is hard for both of us. Again, Gaia knew what I needed when she guided me to these crystals.

I have been amazed at how accurate my intuition is very quickly becoming! I am also amazed at the ease in which I have been able to release Hubby’s foul words and accusations. Just a few weeks ago, I would have been in a deep misery with the accusations he was throwing around like confetti this morning.  Now, I am so much more in-tune with my deeper self that his petty hurtfulness rolls off of me like rainwater. I understand that he is in pain, is worried and afraid, and this is his way of getting that out of his system (no, he really doesn’t care who he hurts as long as he can feel better). I understand that he is a toxic person, but I also know that I cannot leave him, especially while he is fighting for his life.

This deeper understanding of me has seriously helped me heal from all of the past abuse. I see myself getting stronger and more whole than I have been in a very long time.

Here’s to healing myself from the soul outward!_99188595_wineglassesgetty

 

 

Until next time, Blessed Be

Storm on the Horizon

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Small Steps

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This is the way I feel right now as Hubby & I come to grips with his diagnosis. We now have appointments with an oncologist and an oncology radiologist. The appointments are 2 weeks away, but at least they are made and we will know more by Thanksgiving.

I have picked up a mini planner to keep all of the information on this fight and, if needed, to make notes on Hubby’s final wishes so I can fulfill them.

In the meantime, I am also continuing my year and a day in preparation to my solitary initiation. I started that on October 30 and my year and a day will be complete next October 31, 2020.  Samhain.  A full moon.  A BLUE moon! I could not have picked a better day!

I have pulled Tarot cards each weekday morning except for today. Instinct told me to just sit quietly at my altar and meditate. I thanked Goddess for everything in my life and for each day that I am given in this lifetime. After that I felt much more peaceful than I had for a few days.  On my drive to work, watching the glorious day open up, I felt such joy and happiness and calm that I almost cried. That is how I want to feel every day!

I have also bought more yarn to work on Grandson’s blanket and have been working diligently on Granddaughter’s blanket. I keep working on them to keep my spirits up and my frequency sending love to them and our daughter. I am working on manifesting them being at Thanksgiving and Christmas this year and every year forward.

Until next we meet

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Storm on the Horizon

Beginning a New Era

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We got the results of Hubby’s biopsy on Saturday. He does have cancer, thankfully (if there can be such a thing with that kind of diagnosis), his cancer is due to a virus and usually responds well to treatment.

We spent the rest of the weekend at home, quietly, just enjoying each other’s company and resting up for the fight ahead.

His Ear-Nose-Throat doctor is supposed to make an appointment with our local oncologist for sometime this week.

He told the children we still have contact with (including our youngest daughter who is currently not really speaking to us) and heard back from two of the three kids. I have also developed my own support system because I know that I will need them at some point in this battle.

Thankfully, none of the people we told came over this past weekend. Neither one of us wanted company. We just wanted peace and quiet to come to terms with this diagnosis and all the ramifications and changes to come to our lives.

Now, onward and upward toward the battle!

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More on this later my lovelies.

Storm on the Horizon

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Reflections

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As this year passes into the next, I am put into a reflective mood.

I tried and failed to become independent of my husband. He hasn’t changed, but the way I view our marriage has changed.

My attempt to leave has brought out a deep fissure between our daughter and us. I am trying to heal that wound, but will take time and patience as she is very angry and I am only just now learning what brings her anger out against us.

Our son has become my husband’s best friend, which I am so thrilled about. They really have always needed to be close, but I think I must have been in the way since their closeness came about while we were separated.

Our son has his girlfriend living in this state now, instead of way up north of here. She is such a fun person! I am really happy that he has finally found someone who loves him as much as she does and someone I love to have around as well! She is the first one who realized that I was going toward Paganism and learning to trust my own intuition and “witchyness”.

I am growing and learning in my chosen lifestyle and enjoying my world much more than I have for a very long time. We cleaned and winterized a section of the yard for me to plant next spring. That will be my witch’s garden. I have also started herb seedlings and picked up some growing herbs from Dillons for inside this winter.  Hubby & I picked up a couple of metal plant stands from someone down the road from us. The larger one is holding my herbs in front of the stationary glass door in the family room. I am looking forward to cleaning and de-cluttering the family room and being able to use the table in that room very soon!

We have cleaned and de-cluttered the front bedroom and now have a really nice bed in there. We have cleaned and de-cluttered the office closet and are now using that as a pantry and the office is now so clean and repainted and has become one of my happy places!

Our front room has been rearranged and we are much happier in there as well. We do have more work to do in the front bedroom and the front room, but we are happy with what we have done so far. It has made a world of difference in our home.

My husband has some serious health issues which are now coming to light. He has surgery early in the morning for a biopsy on his tonsil. We are preparing for the worst news but hoping for the best.  That is all we can do at this point since we essentially know nothing.

Blessed Be and Go In Good Health Until We Meet Again.

Storm on the Horizon

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