Spring Renewal


I had a really rough morning at work yesterday, so really needed a quiet walk in nature to ground and center myself so I could come back to my desk in a better mood and a kinder, gentler frame of mind.

It was a perfect day to walk in the park close to my work. The red buds are still blooming beautifully against the summer-blue Kansas sky. The birds are singing their lively spring songs and the trees are all beginning to show their new buds. The ducks are sitting on their eggs. And all is fresh and new in nature.


I had gentle meditation music playing in the one ear bud I wear for my walks (so I can also listen to the birds sing, the wind rustle thru the trees, and the water flow over the rocks). As I walked along, I was reminded of the precious renewals we all go thru every year, sometimes several times a year. I thank Gaia for the opportunity to experience this Spring renewal and the return of the sun to this area of the world. I thank her for the memories of several past Springs that have brought so much happiness to me and such a sense of wonder in each new flower or tree blossoming , each sweet song for the birds and each gentle hum from the insects.

I invite you to look around where you live as the new season unfolds before you. Look for the joy and wonder of the rebirth of each plant or creature this spring (or the slowing down and restfulness of each creature and the preparation for the quiet season if you are beginning autumn where you live). Fully be in the season each moment you can. watch the changes mindfully and note how you feel; renewed energy or beginning to slow down and rest. Appreciate the beauty in each scent, sound and sight as you walk in nature.

Thank you, Gaia, for the wonder of each season and the changes in our world. I appreciate the joy and renewal in Spring (as that is the season I am in now). Thank you for this lesson in gratitude and stillness.


In the Eye of the Storm




Seriously getting in the Yule Spirit


I spent some time outside at my home. By myself. In the wind. With some peppermint tea. I feel so much better now!

On my drive to work, I was thinking about what to get my son and his family for Christmas/Yule, and came up with the perfect gifts! As a plus, I have already collected most of the ingredients I will need! Isn’t it great when Gaia leads you to things that you didn’t know you would need, but you collected them anyway!

I will be making some spell jars for my Pagan family members…

One will get a nightmare protection jar, one will get a health and happiness spell jar and the third will get a peace and prosperity spell jar.  Two will be tiny ones that they can wear and one will be set beside there bed at all times. I am so tickled to get started on these! I don’t even care if Hubby (who doesn’t know I am on The Path) asks what I am doing! I am so ready to come out of the broom closet so I can actually practice and celebrate as I feel I need to instead of trying to arrange time alone to do what I need to do for my own peace of mind.

But, back to the protection/spell jars..I have almost all the things I need for them so I can get started right away. I am hoping to have them all ready to sit on the windowsill on the next full moon so they will be especially powerful for their people. I am starting with the nightmare protection jar because I am closest to the person that one will go to. It tickles me that as I write down what I want to put into the jar, then look up the correspondences, I am so right on with that! My intuition is coming back to me so quickly and so fully! Thank you, Gaia!

I will post all about them as I finish them and will post pictures when they are completed and charged.  Wish me luck!


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I Heard and Heeded the Call


This morning was one of those difficult ones, the kind that you wish you could just go back to bed and call it a day already! Hubby was not happy about my shopping trip yesterday (even though I got him some warm and comfortable fleece clothes to wear for his cancer treatments), and he woke up in a fowl mood, accusing me of having a lover again! After he left for work, I sat at my altar and just let all of those feelings wash over me and dissipate in the air. After a short while, I felt so much better and looked in the dish that holds some of my crystals. Two of them called me so I picked them up, I tried to put them back into the dish, but they wouldn’t drop from my hand, so I stuffed them into my bra for the drive to work.

The crystals were Carnelian and Tigers Eye. I feel so much more in control of my emotions and nowhere near as angry and frustrated as I had been feeling. Thank you, Gaia, for teaching this lesson to me today.


On another subject, we will be going to Hubby’s cancer team meeting early Monday morning. This meeting should give us the information about what stage his cancer is in, how far it has spread, and give us a clearer image of what treatments to expect. I am nervous as well as ready to find out. Waiting is hard for both of us. Again, Gaia knew what I needed when she guided me to these crystals.

I have been amazed at how accurate my intuition is very quickly becoming! I am also amazed at the ease in which I have been able to release Hubby’s foul words and accusations. Just a few weeks ago, I would have been in a deep misery with the accusations he was throwing around like confetti this morning.  Now, I am so much more in-tune with my deeper self that his petty hurtfulness rolls off of me like rainwater. I understand that he is in pain, is worried and afraid, and this is his way of getting that out of his system (no, he really doesn’t care who he hurts as long as he can feel better). I understand that he is a toxic person, but I also know that I cannot leave him, especially while he is fighting for his life.

This deeper understanding of me has seriously helped me heal from all of the past abuse. I see myself getting stronger and more whole than I have been in a very long time.

Here’s to healing myself from the soul outward!_99188595_wineglassesgetty



Until next time, Blessed Be

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Small Steps


This is the way I feel right now as Hubby & I come to grips with his diagnosis. We now have appointments with an oncologist and an oncology radiologist. The appointments are 2 weeks away, but at least they are made and we will know more by Thanksgiving.

I have picked up a mini planner to keep all of the information on this fight and, if needed, to make notes on Hubby’s final wishes so I can fulfill them.

In the meantime, I am also continuing my year and a day in preparation to my solitary initiation. I started that on October 30 and my year and a day will be complete next October 31, 2020.  Samhain.  A full moon.  A BLUE moon! I could not have picked a better day!

I have pulled Tarot cards each weekday morning except for today. Instinct told me to just sit quietly at my altar and meditate. I thanked Goddess for everything in my life and for each day that I am given in this lifetime. After that I felt much more peaceful than I had for a few days.  On my drive to work, watching the glorious day open up, I felt such joy and happiness and calm that I almost cried. That is how I want to feel every day!

I have also bought more yarn to work on Grandson’s blanket and have been working diligently on Granddaughter’s blanket. I keep working on them to keep my spirits up and my frequency sending love to them and our daughter. I am working on manifesting them being at Thanksgiving and Christmas this year and every year forward.

Until next we meet








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Beginning a New Era


We got the results of Hubby’s biopsy on Saturday. He does have cancer, thankfully (if there can be such a thing with that kind of diagnosis), his cancer is due to a virus and usually responds well to treatment.

We spent the rest of the weekend at home, quietly, just enjoying each other’s company and resting up for the fight ahead.

His Ear-Nose-Throat doctor is supposed to make an appointment with our local oncologist for sometime this week.

He told the children we still have contact with (including our youngest daughter who is currently not really speaking to us) and heard back from two of the three kids. I have also developed my own support system because I know that I will need them at some point in this battle.

Thankfully, none of the people we told came over this past weekend. Neither one of us wanted company. We just wanted peace and quiet to come to terms with this diagnosis and all the ramifications and changes to come to our lives.

Now, onward and upward toward the battle!


More on this later my lovelies.

Storm on the Horizon




As this year passes into the next, I am put into a reflective mood.

I tried and failed to become independent of my husband. He hasn’t changed, but the way I view our marriage has changed.

My attempt to leave has brought out a deep fissure between our daughter and us. I am trying to heal that wound, but will take time and patience as she is very angry and I am only just now learning what brings her anger out against us.

Our son has become my husband’s best friend, which I am so thrilled about. They really have always needed to be close, but I think I must have been in the way since their closeness came about while we were separated.

Our son has his girlfriend living in this state now, instead of way up north of here. She is such a fun person! I am really happy that he has finally found someone who loves him as much as she does and someone I love to have around as well! She is the first one who realized that I was going toward Paganism and learning to trust my own intuition and “witchyness”.

I am growing and learning in my chosen lifestyle and enjoying my world much more than I have for a very long time. We cleaned and winterized a section of the yard for me to plant next spring. That will be my witch’s garden. I have also started herb seedlings and picked up some growing herbs from Dillons for inside this winter.  Hubby & I picked up a couple of metal plant stands from someone down the road from us. The larger one is holding my herbs in front of the stationary glass door in the family room. I am looking forward to cleaning and de-cluttering the family room and being able to use the table in that room very soon!

We have cleaned and de-cluttered the front bedroom and now have a really nice bed in there. We have cleaned and de-cluttered the office closet and are now using that as a pantry and the office is now so clean and repainted and has become one of my happy places!

Our front room has been rearranged and we are much happier in there as well. We do have more work to do in the front bedroom and the front room, but we are happy with what we have done so far. It has made a world of difference in our home.

My husband has some serious health issues which are now coming to light. He has surgery early in the morning for a biopsy on his tonsil. We are preparing for the worst news but hoping for the best.  That is all we can do at this point since we essentially know nothing.

Blessed Be and Go In Good Health Until We Meet Again.

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Exploring a New Religion

I have been searching for a religion that I can believe in and accept for a long time. Having been raised as a Methodist, I have been disappointed by the mainstream churches in my area and the people who control them.

My heart follows nature and that is where I find my greatest peace, so, I am exploring Wicca. No, I am not worshiping satan or anything like that! I appreciate nature and everything she has to offer. My best days have always started with the beauty of a wonder-filled sunrise, and ended with the wonder of a beautiful sunset.

In my exploration, I am reading ‘Wicca for Beginners’ by Gillian Nolan.

Wicca for Beginners

I haven’t gotten very far in this book yet, but I have several passages highlighted in pink! Yes, PINK! I am loving that color right now.

I have also bought a few different crystals to help clear my heart, mind and soul. Since I have been reading and trying to follow the ideas in the books I have been reading (some are on my Kindle), I do feel much more in control of myself, not as “scattered”, and have been able to actually sit for extended periods of time without just vegeing in front of the television.

I am learning to read Tarot and have been spending time with my deck each morning before I go to work. Quiet, relaxing music (thank you Aura App) and a peaceful feel in my kitchen have gone a long way toward making me feel comfortable in my own home again.

I am also learning about the crystals and their properties, now wearing black onyx and green jasper for protection and will have moonstone before my birthday! Each of these have healing and protective properties, so I can continue to heal myself.

These steps I am making must be working because my daughter has contacted her dad & I with some very angry words and a threat with no foundation. So, I will continue on this path and deal with the fall-out as best I can.

Wish me luck!



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